I guess I've come a long way since Faith was born. OH, HOW THINGS HAVE CHANGED. I used to care about petty things and now I'm like forget it. What seemed like a big deal then has become so petty now. For example:
Then:
Clothes w/ one little stain went in the "don't even think about leaving the house" drawer or the donation box. I'm not kidding, if it had even the smallest stain...
Now:
It has to be really stained to go in that drawer or the donation box.
Then:
Baby couldn't leave the house w/ out shoes on (or at least socks)
Now:
It's too hot, we're running late, go barefoot!, well just if your a baby.
Then:
Don't yell outside, you'll disturb all the neighbors.
Now:
Yell as much as you want, outside:)
Then:
Don't leave the house w/ out makeup on (even to check the mail).
Now:
Well, I'm still a little obsessed w/ that one, but I'm opening up~I check the mail now sometimes w/out putting my make up on.
Then:
I wish I had more money to go on vacations and do stuff w/ my kids.
Now:
Who cares, they just want the attention from mommy and daddy we don't have to spend big bucks to get a million dollar smile.
I could go on and on...
I've realized I don't have to capture every "first" on camera or photo, I don't have to be the mom that can do it all plus some, and I don't need to do extravagant things to feel like my family loves me. Most of all, I've realized that there are going to be so many "firsts" that I as a mom get to do all by myself that it's okay if I just forget about some of them because I'm having a crappy day or have been stressed out. I'm really fortunate to be around my children to encounter their daily lives and the new steps they seem to find on a daily basis. I don't have to be told by someone else what new milestone they accomplished that day. I am sometimes sad that Ian doesn't get to see what I see everyday. I'm sure in a few more years I'll have realized many more things about being a parent. I look forward to the new memories and looking back and seeing how much my family and I have changed over the years.
In the end what really matters is that my kids know and love God, care about themselves and others and that I can prepare them to survive and make the best decisions in the world when they are out there all by themselves. God willing, there is always tomorrow to capture something new. I am truly blessed!
Million Dollar Smiles that didn't cost a dime:)
